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Matt Pemberton's avatar

Thank you for being so open and honest with yourself and sharing that with us. Your words bring me profound sadness and calm, simultaneously.

From this atheist/quaker/jew to you, blessings to you and your sons. Take care of yourself and those around you, as you continue to do. Thank you for sharing your journey. 🙏🫶🤟

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Bossa Nogi's avatar

I love this. Stay strong and keep writing!!

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Jill Altshuler's avatar

Wow, Joshua, this is so beautiful, eloquent, as are all of your writings that you share with us. Thank you 💕

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Jennifer I's avatar

Thank you for sharing your grief journey. This message today spoke to me. I can relate in so many ways. Thank you

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Just Some Guy's avatar

Wishing you all the best in as hard a time as I can imagine. Thank you for sharing your grief. In my small way, I hope to bear it with you.

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Gail Rauner's avatar

What I take from this note is that the ability to disconnect head from heart is something that Olga and I shared. It is something I admired in her, and possibly she related to in me. We would often share good laughs at the lunacy of any given situation, I would crack a joke, she would say smile with a glint in her eye and say..."Oh Gail, I appreciate you." and G-D knows I appreciated, no, loved Olga.

She was so even-keeled, and unflappable. I never imagined the toll this was taking on her body. She just always held it together, and that was something I admired, I still do. But I will take this lesson to heart and understand that it is important to feel your feelings, and not allow cognitive dissonance to eat away at our health. The feelings have to go somewhere, and like a pressure cooker one needs an escape valve. I believe that was likely you and the boys to Olga. Sending so much love.

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chantal Rubin's avatar

You sure you’re only 34??? This kind of thought process usually comes a bit later in life….,, but you’ve lived a lot of life in the last month……,, the boys are going to be ok……Having a dad with your EQ is such a blessing! You will grieve forever! Just at different times- and in different ways- I’m so glad you and Olga created 2 beautiful boys for this world!

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