I was there a few years ago. My wife died of lung cancer, a surprise only to her as she was a heavy smoker. I cared for her during the two years of her illness. She tried therapy but couldn't tolerate it and chose to die instead. That took 8 months from the date of her decision. I loved her, I was angry at her for giving up, I prayed for a miracle and never really accepted completely that I would lose her, until I did. I guess you could say I had time to prepare for the inevitable and I did, but I didn't. You really can't. At the funeral, my son was the only one who cried. I had to be strong, set the tone, go through the motions. I looked at the open grave, a dual, stacked grave, unusual in the States, but that's how her family plot was organized. I'll be there someday. I contemplated just jumping in there with her...but I realized I wanted to live. And I still do. Even so, I just started crying for the first time in two years while reliving this moment. You'll go on. You must. For your kids, for your family, and truly for yourself. The best, most lasting tribute you can give her is to keep her memory alive. Remember the good and the bad and the in-between. I like to joke...my late wife is still there and I can talk to her; she just doesn't talk back quite as much.
May your beloved's memory be for a blessing to you.
Joshua, the pain and emotion of losing your best friend, your soulmate, your love, the mother of your sons, the one you reminisced on the past with and dreamt of the future can seem crushing. There are no answers to the questions, the why’s. But know this, her spirit lives in you. Often, the best way to live with this raw pain is to talk or write about it, but for you there could be more when you are ready. Sing, wrap it into a song and sing. Music heals, it is common ground, it is inspirational and has strength. I hope you find the music, it may help you heal.
So sorry for your loss, so sorry for the boys 💔. It’s a lot of pain to endure. Your boys are lucky to have you, and you’re lucky for them. May you be each others medicine, as they say in my culture. May you help each other heal. Wishing you much strength during this challenging time! Praying for your family!
As far as live shows, I’ve cleared out my calendar for the foreseeable future. You won’t see me in May, but maybe later in the year. I will keep you posted.
I was there a few years ago. My wife died of lung cancer, a surprise only to her as she was a heavy smoker. I cared for her during the two years of her illness. She tried therapy but couldn't tolerate it and chose to die instead. That took 8 months from the date of her decision. I loved her, I was angry at her for giving up, I prayed for a miracle and never really accepted completely that I would lose her, until I did. I guess you could say I had time to prepare for the inevitable and I did, but I didn't. You really can't. At the funeral, my son was the only one who cried. I had to be strong, set the tone, go through the motions. I looked at the open grave, a dual, stacked grave, unusual in the States, but that's how her family plot was organized. I'll be there someday. I contemplated just jumping in there with her...but I realized I wanted to live. And I still do. Even so, I just started crying for the first time in two years while reliving this moment. You'll go on. You must. For your kids, for your family, and truly for yourself. The best, most lasting tribute you can give her is to keep her memory alive. Remember the good and the bad and the in-between. I like to joke...my late wife is still there and I can talk to her; she just doesn't talk back quite as much.
May your beloved's memory be for a blessing to you.
OK Josh, I sure am not surprised.
Love You, my friend
This hits hard. Of course you’re not okay! But your writing is so beautiful and meaningful. Thinking of you and your boys with affection. 🙏
Joshua, the pain and emotion of losing your best friend, your soulmate, your love, the mother of your sons, the one you reminisced on the past with and dreamt of the future can seem crushing. There are no answers to the questions, the why’s. But know this, her spirit lives in you. Often, the best way to live with this raw pain is to talk or write about it, but for you there could be more when you are ready. Sing, wrap it into a song and sing. Music heals, it is common ground, it is inspirational and has strength. I hope you find the music, it may help you heal.
So sorry for your loss, so sorry for the boys 💔. It’s a lot of pain to endure. Your boys are lucky to have you, and you’re lucky for them. May you be each others medicine, as they say in my culture. May you help each other heal. Wishing you much strength during this challenging time! Praying for your family!
Josh, your heart will beat again, let it grieve.
I look forward to seeing you in May, California awaits you 💕
Thank you, Shelley. ❤️
As far as live shows, I’ve cleared out my calendar for the foreseeable future. You won’t see me in May, but maybe later in the year. I will keep you posted.